RYLAN Clark-Neal says he'll always being unhappy with his appearance – after vicious school bullies left him with insecurities.
In an exclusive interview with The Sun, Rylan admits he doesn't feel confident when he looks in the mirror – despite getting botox, fillers and veneers to transform his image.
The 32-year-old, who is married to former police officer Dan Neal, was mercilessly bullied at secondary school for being “gay, fat and ginger”.
The abuse has left long-lasting scars and Rylan says he's accepted he won't ever be truly happy with how he looks.
"I always struggled with how I looked growing up," Rylan told The Sun, while launching Soap & Glory’s new capsule podcast, GLOW & GO.
"At school I was the little fat ginger kid and used to get picked on. I was quite camp, so the gay thing played its part. I used to start dying my hair at 14.
"I'm still not happy now, but I'm OK with that.
"I've had botox and fillers, and went through a stage where I took these too far sometimes.
"Do I sit here and have any regrets? Yes we all have regrets. i would love nothing more than to grow my hair out, stop colouring it, not have to trim my beard…but I created a look that people recognise.
"I'd like to have pecks, a six-pack, arms bigger than my legs and f***ing love my life.
"It's alright I don't love the way I look. It's OK I'm not body confident – I'm the opposite of body confident, but I'm alright with it.
"I've always had hang ups about the way I look. Then I got into a career where it gives people free for all to judge how I look.
"I'm quite an insecure person. Everyone thinks I'm confident because I present live telly, but do I feel confident looking in the mirror when I wake up? No.
"Do I feel a bit more confident when I've got makeup on and done my skincare? Yeah I feel confident, but not as confident as I would like to feel.
"I've found a good balance from a skincare point of view and looking after myself from an 'addition' point of view.
"I was lucky enough to marry someone who actually looks good all the f***ing time, which annoys me."
"Absolute b*****d," he joked.
Rylan added: "I'll never be fully happy with the way I look, but I'm happy I know that, if that makes sense?
"It's alright to have hangups. I don't think I'm at a point where I'm frightened to leave the house.
"But if someone wants to change something about their appearance, I'm not judging anyone – and no one else should. They can do what they want with their own bodies."
"I don't think people should change to make other people happy but they should change to make themselves happy if that's what they want to do."
- Rylan's Glow & Go capsule podcast with leading UK beauty brand Soap & Glory is available to download here, with IN THE GLOW HOW™ 5% Glycolic Acid Exfoliating Tonic available to purchase at Boots.
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