LAUREN Goodger has revealed she thought she was going to DIE when she was rushed to hospital after ditching strong antidepressants.
The 33-year-old reality star shared a series of alarming posts on Instagram in December but told fans at the time that she was simply hungover.
Now she's revealed she was in fact terrified that she was going to die after triggering a frightening episode from quitting her medication.
Lauren told New magazine: "Truthfully, I thought I was dying. I've never been one to take antidepressants but this particular psychiatrist put me on a strong dose for my anxiety because my heart palpitations were out of control.
"I hated the thought of putting this medication in my body so I just stopped it one day, which you aren't meant to do, apparently that triggered it.
"I'd had Christmas at mine and had to organise food and drink for 15 people which was a stress … your mind and body are like a computer and when it goes overdrive you crash. And I crashed.
"I couldn't breathe, my heart rate was sky high, my eyes were in the back of my head, I was shivering. I was in a terrible way. I was begging my friend for help. When the ambulance came I was told I needed to be taken to hospital."
She added: "That's the point I thought I was going to die. And you know what? I thought, 'If I'm dying I don't care. Just get it over and done with because I don't want to feel like this any more.'"
Lauren says she told fans she was hungover because she was scared to reveal the truth.
She added: "It wasn't the reason I was in that hospital. I'd had a drink the night before, on Christmas, like the rest of the country. But I didn't put that post up until the evening and people thought it was a result of my drinking."
Lauren shared snaps with a drip in her arm and wires taped to her chest, before posting a video of her shaking violently under a hospital blanket.
She said she still hasn't full recovered.
She added: "They told me I'd stopped my antidepressants too suddenly and my body couldn't handle it.
"I feel like s**t to be honest. I'm so tired. People don't realise just how ill really was. But I've been working out with a PT since the beginning of the January. I'm training hard again and I'm getting there."
The star has had a difficult few months, after being stung by a BBC undercover camera show where she was shown agreeing to promote a cyanide drink.
Speaking about how she's coped since the documentary, she said: "I've suffered with anxiety and panic attacks on and off for years. It got to the point where, in the last six months, I really didn't feel well and I made myself go to see a psychiatrist.
"Then on boxing day I just crashed."
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