Gemma Collins broke down in tears on Piers Morgan's Life Stories as she admitted her split from James Argent left her feeling suicidal.
The ITV show looked back at Gemma's life, including all the tough times she had gone through with Arg, who had been addicted to drugs during their on-off relationship.
As she cried, the TOWIE icon said: "I fought every day for three years to get him well.
"I have felt suicidal, when my relationship broke down with Arg. I just thought, 'I don't want to be here any more.'"
Gemma told Piers: "I had this insatiable love for him, but the relationship turned very sour because of the drugs."
The reality starlet spoke of their relationship and the miscarriage that she had suffered last year, explaining Arg had been the father of the child.
She told Piers that Arg would not have abandoned her if she'd had the baby, saying that things would've been different.
Gemma went on to confess that there was a hope of a reunion for the two of them – but they had a lot of things they had to work through.
"If we move on from the past, probably yeah," she said. "He's the love of my life, basically."
Gemma said that, after terminating a pregnancy when she was younger, she turned to self harm as she struggled to deal with the emotional pain.
"I had a lovely boyfriend and we lived in a lovely home, I was pregnant but in my three month scan they said my baby would be deformed, so I had to make a decision," she told Piers.
The star went on: "I was probably desperately unhappy I was 20, 21, I've still got scars on my wrist now.
"I'd just get a knife and start cutting, I'm well out of it now and I've never tried to pursue that again.
"I should have had therapy at the time, it can happen to anyone."
For emotional support you can call the Samaritans 24-hour helpline on 116 123, email [email protected], visit a Samaritans branch in person or go to the Samaritans website.
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- Piers Morgan
- Gemma Collins
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